So the waves have ceased, the ripples glide smoothly to shore. I start to wonder how much time i've got til another tsumani finds me.

So i should be happy. So i should be glad. So i should feel great. My heart is a scale ...

3 days to exam... :S

confusion .. anxiety .. questions .. mixed!!! uneasy

i havent really started searchin for myself although i know i must .. everytime i start.. i chicken out. Im afraid of the passages it links to .. im afraid of finding "the truth" .. im hiding from myself behind those unlimited theories of biol n its stupid meter long words.

I THINK Kep just knocked me heart out wen she suggest aMing commit suicide n she was gonna go with him.. wtf!!! If they die, my life good as dead. No aMing to comfort me, no Kep to keep me smiling, even wen we both in tears... ill be a wreck! I mean, isnt Collin enough...?

Its not everyday of your life that you meet people who are "special", they have the charisma, the talent with speech, the heart _ the kind of people who leave imprints in your heart. I've been gifted to know 3 most remarkable people. Collin is now gone - the dream guy for a friend, boyfriend, brother to anyone. Please god, if you were to take someone else, take me!

Im on a quest to search for me. For i dont know what i want until i know who i am.

What are the ideals that are most important to me?What do i like/dislike?Where do i belong? What makes me Me? What are the roots of my personality - on trees, leaves change seasonally, but roots stay the same. How do i like to do things. How do i like to look at situations. How will i be able to look at this world as i once have? ... So many unexpressible questions i must list and answer .. on the road to find me.

i need to find me to know wat i want from life, what i can give to life, what i need from this world (that i already know), who i want...

never been digging this far before...

Although the name Ngoc creates the urge to be reliable and responsible, we emphasize that it frustrates you through a scattered and emotional nature. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the liver, bloodstream, and through worry and mental tension.

Your first name of Ngoc has given you a responsible, expressive, inspirational, and friendly personality. Expression comes naturally to you and you are rarely at a loss for words; in fact, you have to put forth effort at times to curb an over-active tongue. Self-confidence has made it easy for you to meet people and you are well-liked for your spontaneous, happy ways. You sincerely like people and do not often experience loneliness; your work and home-life are likely filled with association  

second bit isnt me!!Just bits of the first .. so overall, 50% rating for correctness